The search for love has come up dry.

What is rational thought? According to Webster's, rational meaning, being in or characterized by full possession of one's reason; sane; lucid: And thought, meaning the product of mental activity; that which one thinks: a body of thought. The phenomenon that's happening these days in America is the opposite to rational thought. People are gearing up for a fight of some kind. When I take a look inward at my own thoughts, I can sum up my behavior as reaction. I have been reacting since Barack Obama was elected to office. It's probably been since he first announced his run for president. I have been more active in the political process than I ever have. I have donated more money and written more letters to my elected officials that I ever have. I don't feel like it makes a difference, yet I can't seem to stop. It's become a joke between my husband and me. An issue comes up and he says write a letter and I usually do. I've written to my state senators and congress men and women. I've written to other state's representatives as well. Is my behavior rational? I don't think it's totally rational. I wrote the White House today. This behavior is causing me more stress than I'm able to handle. I don't want to handle it. I want to be happy and I want to feel secure in my life. I want that security to be the truth in my life. The hatred that I've exposed myself to is too overwhelming and I choose to replace it. The love that I've been trying to find in this political landscape must come from me. Yes. It will start with me. I'm going on a diet. I'm going on a political diet. No more writing about politics, no more watching the political pundits, no more NPR. So much for finding love in the political landscape. There's no love out there. The only love I find is within me.